I have a painting tonight. I had to do it today for some comfort. It has a ton of hidden meaning and emotion on many levels, although I don't think that it really shows, especially if you don't know it's there. For safety's sake it's titled "Hatched Black Copper Marans' Eggs", 6"x6", oil on gessobord, $50. framed. Sold. I hope that apostrophe is correct. Lisa's funeral was just tragic. I can't fathom Dolores's pain. She's such a strong woman. My cousin Mimi spoke during the service and really touched my heart. The crowd was overflowing. I'm going to go to the dark side for a little while and try to process all of this. I know that God will guide me through it and I'll come out on the other side a better person. It's so frustrating to not know the whys and hows of this. I always feel like I need to understand and know so that I can protect my family, but because the murderer also killed himself, I'll never truly have the answers. I pray that God will give me the peace I need. Here's a link for you about restraining orders, with other links, there's a lot of the information about the murder-suicide.

http://www.app.com/article/200908171720/OPINION01/908180306

When unexpected death in the family happens it is so devastating, but when murder happens to a young, bright and beautiful 30 year old woman, it's absolutely horrific. Response to the situation seems so trivial. Almost ridiculous. Honestly, what can you say that will make the mother of the victim feel better--not a damn thing. Nothing. If I could make it better, I would. I'm helpless, hopeless and still horrified. God, please give comfort to Dolores, Lisa's mother. Lisa was her long-awaited daughter and her only child. Her life was taken by her ex-fiance', who just couldn't get past himself. A truly selfish and derranged person, not good enough to be called a man. He hung himself after he killed Lisa. He left three little boys and their mother, plus the rest of his family and ours to deal with his mess.The funeral is tomorrow, so I won't be posting, but would appreciate your prayers.

Last night I fell asleep watching TV. The heat and humidity really wiped me out. The kids made it to California OK and they were so pleased with their dinner at Bouchon last night, they went back for lunch today. After that they went to Honig Winery, which is a place we went to last year. They were so kind in addition to the wine being so good, but the part that I remember is driving down a road to exit from there and doing a u-turn with the trunk open and flopping up and down and passing a police car. Celeste and I had the load, but fortunately Jay didn't and he was driving.Celeste and I thought it was hilarious. Jay Sr. and I went to Stargazers Vineyards in Chester County today on some chicken business. What a beautiful place. I heard a woman saying how much it looked like Napa. Not even close to me. Yes, it looked like a vineyard, but it also looked so much like Chester County, Pennsylvania. We had a nice visit. Thanx Alice and John. I was taking photos of the chickens again out in the front yard yesterday, when my nemesis popped her head up about 10 feet from me. She just won't take the hint.